My performance has, more than ever before, been at the forefront of my mind recently.
I have just started a new role…same company…new role though. When first approached about the job, I thought “Wow, what a great opportunity; a new challenge without the usual upheaval and culture refamiliarisation required with a move to a new organisation.”
I couldn’t have been more wrong.
It seems I had underestimated the impact of my identity loss…I was Head of Blah, now I am Head of a Different Blah. All of a sudden I went from a position of clarity, focus, confidence and control to…well…not clarity, not focus, not confidence and not control!
All this and the credit crunch! Oh woe is me.
Woe is me, until I reflected upon some of the stuff I was discussing with a colleague recently in a coaching session (well, there is nothing quite like taking your own medicine is there?). In this reflective moment I recalled some self talk of recent times…in fact it might not just have been self-talk, more like blatant-open-talking-to-anyone-who-would-listen…
I can recall saying, thinking and affirming…”I need a new challenge!”, “I’m getting a bit bored”, “I learn best when I am out of my comfort zone”, “I feel like I want to get my teeth stuck into something different”, “I need to move on”…you know what I mean, don’t you?
And I am reminded of the saying “Be careful what you wish for because you might just get it”. I have wished for and manifested this situation…so why on earth am I spending my time in woe? Why aren’t I doing what I do best – learning when out of my comfort zone?
So, I make the choice now. I am getting on with it, enjoying the ride and learning…and being careful what I wish for!